Thoughts For The Evening of February 13, 2013.
Be for retiring to my room for the evening(i.e. looking on tumblr, checking email, school stuff, reading, then bed) but then as I looked out of the blackened panes of the slide door, I decided that a nice breath of the cool night air before all that would be just perfect. So I pulled my hoodie up over my head and zipped up my faithful sweater of almost five years and pulled the door open to be greeted by the cool night air from my backyard. Pulling the door closed be hide me I am alone and I close my eyes and to listen to my neighborhood at night. I hear a few cars drive by, our cat Tom (who happens to be a female) meowing in the garage, the flickering from the street lamp beside our house trying to do its duty. I opened my eyes to see the struggling street lamp and look to the dark veil beyond, the stars seemed brighter than usual. I look on noticing the stars and constellations I do know, half tempted to look at my star map app. And then I thought it be great to have someone to say “That one there is Ursa Major, and there is Draco.” I’d talk about how I used to love to look up at the stars and how I used to get scared thinking about how big space was. I know I have to be patient in meeting people even friends right now is more than welcome because it comes down to the fact that I’m one of the people who can handle being alone but not feeling lonely. I continued to look up at the stars; maybe I was trying to see if they would show me my future prospects in life, no such luck. I began thinking about how things will be different this year for me and things are looking up, how I alone control my happiness and future. Rejuvenated from the impromptu outing I am ending this beautiful evening on a great note.
Goodnight Lovers
Sometimes when I stay awake at night, I begin to think about my life and I feel a soft smile on my face as I think of family, friends, general good memories and I am happy. But… then there are those nights when I stay awake at night and I begin to think about my life and I break down thinking about my mistakes, and regrets. However dark those nights may seem I always remember that the morning will come, there will be a new day, and I have the power to mold and shape my future daily.
Guess its to get ready for work
“I believe there is another world waiting for us, Sixsmith. A better world. And I’ll be waiting for you there.”
-Robert Frobisher, “Cloud Atlas
(Source: godfangs, via jjabramsing)
People don’t realize that we live among Giants.
Sometimes…
i feel like i’m not really there and you don’t seem to care. so in the end i fade away, into a non-existent life. a life where we don’t know each other and i am stuck trying to find myself all over again.
She read about people she could never be, on adventures she would never have.
—Pushing Daisies (via twowongsmakearight)
(Source: gutsgoreandglory)
Sleep.
As I lay here waiting for sleep to over take my restless mind. My thoughts drift to the memories I have of you. Although they’re not many, and they grow weaker with every passing year that you are not here, I still cling to the memories I have of you. Trying so hard not to forget your face. But now it’s your voice that I wish I could remember, it’s been so long since I’ve heard it. I’ve since lost the number of years it has been since I heard your voice. I wish I could remember just once you call out to me. That memory I do not have and it is the one I wish for most. This being the month that everyone speaks of their fathers I can’t help but think of mine and how things might be if you were here today with me. That is the very question that haunts me to this day and will haunt me for the rest of my life.
Papa, I miss you.
your son, David.
